Me and Miss LOL ...

Dear Bloggy ,

Well that's the project that I was talking about . Looks kind of cute to me ..

So here it is ...attached to my bag . The whole thing is so ME .

Am feeling so inspired . Will do more .

Till then Bloggy .

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Dancy

Feeling Better...

Dear Bloggy ,

Alhamdullillah ...am feeling better for the past 2 weeks. That feeling of being tired and drained of energy is hopefully not to be experienced anymore  . Oh ya ,  the phlegm is still there ...though not so bad as before . The need to be careful and choosy where fruits are concerned . What a shame ....fresh tropical fruits are good and delicious .

So what's next ?

Yesterday I bought some felt and a few other stuff to start off a new hobby. Daughter Yasmin has been making little key chains out of felt . She sold some of the things  she made . I know I could do the same thing too . So when she suggested she would like to get some stuff at this Handicraft shop ....I decided to follow suit . Before I know it I was buying  whatever that caught my fancy . In all I spent about RM80 . Yeah , I better make full use of those materials .

Once home I started to choose and make a template . The cat template looked kinda cute . Preparing and cutting and sewing and by today's afternoon I completed a piece.

No image of that little felt key chain taken yet. A labour of love and hard work ..straining my eyes. Somehow it didn't turn out to look like a cat ...more of an Owl. The big eyes looked scary ...said my daughter and she was sure it will not be a hit among her friends .

Its alright ...at least I completed a piece ...a couple of embroidery stitches used in this project ...trying to make it as neat as possible . Well , its hanging near the zip on the bag I am currently using. The whole thing...the bag and that pretty little thing is so .....Me.

A pat on the back for me , Bloggy for a job well done .

Now I gotta move on and make my house as cosy and neat as it used to . Bye....

Dancy

Down Again

Dear Bloggy,

Am still feeling lousy , Bloggy. Dead tired at times too , that I just got to take a rest and curled myself up and let the exhaustion passed by .

Had seen the Doctors and given 4 dose of antibiotics. An overdose if I may say so and no sign of losing up . My body is one big mess of toxic chemicals. Just when is it going to be okay ?

One Doctor said I am all stressed up. Perhaps too. As I grow older , my way of handling stress is not good. At times I need help with certain chores in the house . Sure the children helped out . It was just not consistent in their helping ...the same task and always the need to remind them all the time . In the end the task fell on me . And I just swallowed it all up . Yeah...how long could this body , soul and mind take the whole load . Its breaking down , protesting all the way .

I saw another Doctor...an ENT specialist. I had a slight pain in my right ear . The Doctor said it was not so bad . I told him aout all the medications I had taken all this time .The never ending rounds of fever which comes back the moment the medication wore off....the constant phlegm which irritates my throat ....the now and then sorethroat and coughing . All those medications doesn'tseem to be doing any good .

I will continue again Bloggy....in the mean time I am going to enjoy listening to some long ago music . Stirring up memories indeed .

Bye........

Not Too Good

Dear Bloggy ,

I thought I would be feeling good today . But its not so .  So I popped in two ' demam ' pills . Been taking that for the past 3 days . Another 2 more pills left .

If I'm not okay by the end of the day , I gotta do what I gotta and that is to have my health screening done . By that I need to abstain myself from food as from  midnight tonight . A requirement for any health test . The  doctor will get a sample of my blood.  This  to be tested for a host of whatever they need to check on . Oh ya ..another important thing .....the need to  get my urine in  too .

Am feeling pretty tired now Bloggy .....I gotta rest . My body feels like an old hag now . Every joint is aching . I was thinking of writing longer . This will do for the moment .

Gotta go . See ya !!

Dancy

How I Wish For A ......

Dear Bloggy ,

If there is one wish that needs to be fulfilled, its a wish for a squeeky clean house . A house has to be clean . That's where most of us spend our time . It ought to be a place we could be proud of . Important to ensure it is looking at its best .

At present the place which I am calling home is not in a desirable state . Its just not right to treat my house this way . Just don't judge me okay just because it is in a mess.A mother's life can be tough at times. it doesn't help that I am taking it one day at a time.

Just have to change my ways ....I have to start somewhere .....throwing out the magazines and donating the books should be a good start . I will tell you how it goes bloggy .

Gotta call it a night now. Its raining and the bed is beckoning for me to rest .

Good night , Bloggy.

Another Year ...Another Chance To Do More .

Dear Bloggy ,

I think I have wished everybody a Happy New Year 2012 but not to myself .

So here's to me ...Cheers . Happy New Year 2012 . Another year ...another chance to do more .

Looking back to year 2011 I did not have a lot of goals . Its more of a  recuperating year . Get my health back ; get my hormones back on track . Reaching 50 years old  is indeed so challenging .
Trying to avoid stress , taking things slow and easy ; no pressure at all . I just did the ordinary daily stuff that needs to be done ...keeping myself occupied ...cooking and sending my children wherever they need to go .

5 years as a home mom ....I have more time with my children  though its not quality time as I hoped it to be . They are teenagers and they have a so call life of their own . On my part  I am learning too to slowly disengage myself from this motherhood heartstrings ...preparing myself mentally and emotionally .

The plus side is I am still able to communicate with my children . Its good . We talked . We argued . Tempers flared . At the end of the day we got back together again as a family . And that this is home . A nest they come home to .

Oh ya . We made a trip to Medan , Indonesia last December . A good way to wind up 2011.  Indeed a fantastic family experience . The memories stick with us far longer than anything we could give the children . This kind of family trips need to do more in the future .

What is in store for 2012 ?

There   is so much I want to learn , see and do  . I want to take better care of myself , make an effort with the way I look both physically and mentally . I would like to  improve my relationship with my God , ALLAH SWT too ..

 I need lots of Good Luck and a determination to keep making each year better than the last .

Till then Bloggy . Hugssss...

The Day

Dear Bloggy ,

Am all alone now . Daughter Yasmin is at school . Son Amir decided to follow suit . He said he has to return some textbooks that belonged to the school . Oh well let me enjoy this me time.

I looked at myself in the mirror this morning . Yep ...50 years old . And I look it . Hahahahaha....I kind of like that person looking back at me .

Oh ya ...needs no reminding but still just for the records of my own timeline...I am a at home mother . 5 years of service at 68 , Bandar Laguna Merbok , Sg Petani , Kedah Darul Aman . I am not complaining or whining nor making a self pity attitude .

Just want to tell you Bloggy ...I don't want to trade in this profession for a work out there . I have things planned and hoped to accomplish this year . 

One thing I need to do right now ....is to fold yesterday's laundry . Of course the cleaning aspect comes along ...yeahhhh my house is a disaster . Its messy .

I must clean .

Bye Bloggy .